Wednesday, February 25, 2009

I feel so lost...

Feeling damn lost in middle of nowhere.
Suddenly own ppl RM1.2k...
Aih...
Then seems like i can't follow anything in the lecture...
God Damn The Hell Save Me PLS...

Emo~~~


Sunday, February 22, 2009

遗憾

Was in an exhibition for this weekend..
Learned many things.
Saw Saturn, knew hw to identify few stars..
But...
Have to miss my dad's birthday was one of the things that i don't wish to..
Sigh..
Hw come these things will happen to me??
Sien arr!!!


Saturday, February 21, 2009

人心难测

人心难测
证严法师说过,话多不如话少,话少不如话好。。
现代人,真得很奇怪。。
例如,看到一个东西时,会称赞它美。。
但是,附近的人一定会觉得不太美。甚至有些会说类似So what 的东西。。
审美观不一样的关系吧。。
是非当教育,称赞做警惕。。


朋友。。

朋友到是什么?
很好奇。。
虽说是朋友,但是,奇怪的是,
朋友之间就会无意间的互相对斗。。
例如,
A君平时穿着光鲜靓丽,B君就会觉得我想穿得比他好看。
由或者是,A军有的东西,B君就会觉得我也不能输,也会跑去买一份。。


Who am i??

现在的我到底是谁?我也不知道。。
以前心思细密的我到底去了哪??
谨言慎行的我到底去了哪?
现在口不择言的我不是真正的我。。
而且,该三八也该三八完了吧。。
必须在短时间内寻回自己。。



Bai Nian

A walk during new year changed me somehow. I get to see “The world” in a small scale. I visit some of my friends. Yea I think that a small reunion is a nice thing, where you can catch up with them what’s new. Eg.The *itchy that said I curse her. Hah. Felt so damn good. People knew the fact instead of being twisted by you. But I made some new friends too. So., I went some of their house. I pity some of them. But by the same time, I adore them. I went to one of my friends’ house. A wooden house. I heard that his mom passed away when he was still young. Not much of decorations for New Year. But he still prepared some new year food for his visitors. He too prepared some ang pow for us on behalf of his father. He is good in ping pong and his academics. This time, something flew into my mind. Despite of his condition, he still can be such good. He’s successful. Very 懂事. I think he sacrificed his angpow and gave it to us. Pity him. But adore him too. I learn that I’ve been too much in luxury and I will change my weakness. Save $$ save $$...
Then I started to think, I should have break the tradition of having people that we know to attend some celebrations, eg, birthday, wedding, and invite those less fortunate, eg, orphans, jubilee home to come and have fun with us. You think people you know really wanted to go meh?? Receive your invitation then they start to curse you like hell for the angpao. But since you ady pay, but u don’t attend, they feel rugi pulak. Better share the happiness with people that are less fortunate. At least they thank you. Haha.



In contrast, some pulak I really dunno how to say. Damn rich but dunno how to think and act bossy. Then some self centered like think that they always right. This kind of person, like A9~nians said, need not to care bout them and dun have to have the same click with them. Who you think you are?? Sheesh!!


When Luxury is not An Luxury Anymore.

What do you think about a brand M fast food or a brand K fast food outlet??
What does it reminds you when you are at St**b*c*s drinking a Venti size drink??
Well, for most people, it might mean nothing to them.
But for a person like me who grows up without the influential of the fast food concept, whose financial status was totally being controlled in about RM 10 per week, these things in terms of fast food will automatically falls into the Luxurious category. I would consider brand M as a “sacred” food as it doesn’t have an outlet at my hometown. Although I’ve been visiting shopping complexes, when I see St**b*c*s, I won’t even dare to enter the shop as the price of the drinks would at least cost me about RM10. Months ago, I started to visit these shops more often. Until the last time I went to those places, I’ve found out that the feeling has vanished. I don’t feel any more anxious when I visit those outlets.
I felt that there is nothing more to be anxious about. I just felt like a teenager going to a school daily. Nothing special about it anymore. I just felt that I should change myself as I’m feeling that I’ve spending inappropriately. I must try to control myself. I felt even sorry when I meet with people with disabilities. They seem to be stronger. I felt bad for not being able to help them. Instead of satisfying myself with these things, I should contribute more to help them. I must feel fortunate for everything I have now. As there is a Chinese proverb saying that “比上不足,比下有余。”, Which means, by comparing with the better ones you‘re never enough, but when u compare with the lower ones, you are much more better.
People are strange actually. When they receive help they think that you must help them. But when you are in need, they never contribute; instead, they look at how you fail.




Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Anonymous mood...

Shivering in afraid,
Fearing in failing Electronics 3,
As i enter with no knowledge,
And piece of white paper,
To the tutorial just now...


DIE