Stupid photocopier lady..

Stupid copier lady...
Eat my RM 1 out....
Shit....

Pay u RM2 u say i pay u Rm1 only...
The others also same..
Dunno how to stand up for ppl izzit??
Stupid peoples....
God bless u that the room doesn't have CCTV...
If not i'll gonna sue u for eating up my RM1...

Don't you know that Rm1 mean so much to me??
wit 2 Rm1, i can get one Sai Yau Ice...
wit 3 Rm1, i can get one social welfare ticket.
Wit 3-5 Rm 1, i can join a society...
wit 5 Rm1, i can get my PTPTN form...
wit 7-10 Rm1, i can get my laundry done...
wit 15 Rm1, i can get my beloved Giordano Shirt...
wit 20 Rm1, i can eat a set of Han Jung Suk (Korean full meal)
wit 50 Rm1, i can get to pay the petrol fees,
with 100 Rm1, i can get to buy billabong or body glove perhaps..
wit 155 Rm1, i can get to pay my monthly rentals..
wit 200 Rm1, i can get to get myself hush puppies shoes..
..................
so on and so forth...

How dare the wicked lady con a innocent and kind boy's RM1...
Curse her photocopying machine rosak... Pay back with lots and lots of Rm 1...
Curse her car bocor minyak tangki... Let her rugi lots and lots of Rm 1...
Curse her private property semua rosak....

My RM 1...T.T

What i felt now...

When i get to know my result for last sem,

"When you bless the day,
I just drift away,
All my worries die,
I'm glad that I'm alive

You've set my heart on fire,
Filled me with love,
Made me a woman on clouds above,

I couldn't get much higher,
My spirit takes flight
Cause I am alive
Ohhhhh.."

And kept in the mood of

"Could taste your sweet kisses,
Your arms open wide,
This fever for you is just burning me up inside,

I'm awake all night, to get to you,
Is that alright,
I'm awake all night,
Crept in your heart,
Is that alright...."

When this sem starts,

"I was waiting for so long
For a miracle to come
Everyone told me to be strong
Hold on and don't shed a tear

Through the darkness and good times
I knew I'd make it through
And the world thought I had it all
But I was waiting for you

Hush, love

I see a light in the sky
Oh, it's almost blinding me
I can't believe
I've been touched by an angel with love
Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it fill my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new, new sun
A new day has...come..."

Looking at physics and maths,
"There were hours that just went on for days
When alone at last we'd count up all the chances
That were lost to us forever

But you were history with the slamming of the door
And I made myself so strong again somehow
And I never wasted any of my time on you since last sem or third sem..."

But
"It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now,

There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things I'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than any laws allow"
(Means got many many law such as Newton's law, and more than one solution for each questions..=p)

Looking at the notes, i hope, the basics that i learned during foundation..

Take me back in the arms I love
Need me like you did before
Touch me once again
And remember when
There was no one that you wanted more
Don't go you know... you will break my heart

See me as if you never knew
Hold me so you can't let go
Just believe in me
I will make you see
All the things that I needs to know

I'll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I'm the one who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more

And some way all the love that we had can be saved
Whatever it takes we'll find a way...T.T"

(means that i hope that i can recall back my basic knowledges that i've forgottenT.T..)

Looking at the notes now, i felt like..

"Que les choses ont changé, que les fleurs ont fané
Que le temps d'avant, c'était le temps d'avant"[ French]

"Things have changed, that flowers get fade
That the time before, was the time before"

everything wasn't like foundation anymore...

(Your=lecture notes in this paragraph)

So now everytime i have time,

"Don't know much about your life.
Don't know much about your world, but
Don't want to be alone tonight,
On this planet they call earth.

You don't know about my past, and
I don't have a future figured out.
And maybe this is going too fast.
And maybe it's not meant to last, [Fast teaching]

But what do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

I just want to start again,
And maybe you could show me how to try,
And maybe you could take me in,
Somewhere underneath your skin? [Skin=fully understanding]"

Of cos goin in it's skin by taking chances to study lo if possible....


But sometimes i feel like

"’cause I’d surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you [lecture subjects]
I know you can feel it to
We’d make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I’d make you give them all to me
I’d hold you in my arms and never let go
I surrender

I know I can’t survive
Another night away from you
You’re the reason I go on
And now I need to live the truth
Right now, there’s no better time
From this fear I will break free
And I’ll live again with love
And no the they can’t take that away from me
And they will see... [How i perform this sem]"

T.T

"For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
Ill be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all"

Supports from many, were like:-
"You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldnt speak
You were my eyes when I couldnt see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldnt reach
You gave me faith coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you"

With your blessings and support,

"You're here, theres nothing I fear,
And I know that my heart will go on
Well stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on.."

And to express my gratitude towards support from you all,
" And do I love you my oh my
Yeah river deep mountain high
If I lost you would I cry
Oh how I love you baby, baby, baby, baby"

Hope i'll be singing I'm alive when i see my results next time....=__="


(The post above contained some parts of some song..)

Envy me??=p

Look at these guys...



Wahaha...

Hurt..

There's one wise word saying "The higher you are, the more pain that you will feel when u fall.."
Although i'm not falling, but i've already estimate the impact of myself when i fall down...
2weeks ny, i've already feel like i've been left behind by the lecturers hundreds of kilometer aways....

Sigh...
God bless me...
let me get enlightenment suddenly so that i won't feel so difficult in dealing with my studies...
Pls pls..

Rgd the previous previous post,
What i wrote might a bit "out of the truth"...
SO pls omit it.. TQ...


XoXo

So sueh

I am so sueh today...
Was usual, went to class, then back to home..
In lab, Damn sueh...
My programming language tak makan...
Kena type 2nd time..

Fine..
Then jalan short cut..
Terus do no 2 and cabut...

Back to home..
Just a short distance to reach home,
car broke down...
Kena tow...
Waste 1 hour smth....
But what luckly was i wasn't knock down by car...
=__="

What i learnt frm my friend last time was not to wait in the car when your car broke down in a highway...

But u know, people always forget the learn from ppl's experience...
By the way, 1st time encountering these kind of problem...
So was kinda in "dunno what to do" mood...

Can's blame me also lah...
Haha...

Kesian...
Haha...

XoXo

Emo...

I can't believe that i'm so damn emo~ed today...
When i just came back frm PD, after watching Cider(Korean Program), it's topic is that every scene of life has it's own music... Celine's song was one of the song... As a fan of her, i was damn happy...
And after watching Oprah's show, i tot that miracles do exist in life...

But it was proven wrong when i came back to Cyber...
Many difficulties are awaiting for me...
Challenges from the lord...

But i didnt ask for anything...
All i want is to lead a simple life....

But now for my children's future, i have to work hard...
I must gain good results..
I must get a good job...
I must earn as many as much money as i can...

I wanna give my best to my son..
I wanna give him a car when he goes to uni life..
I wanna buy him a house near his uni...
I wanna furnish the house and put a maid for him to yell at...
Buy him GPS if he needs to...
And anything that is good for him...

Of course that i didnt say that what my parents gave me wasn't good enough...
In fact, i was very grateful for each day they gave me,
Spending less to save for my education,
Putting their children in first place...
Where to find such parents??
So i never ask for more before...
And i never really try to let them noe how difficult my life was...
She even called me just know and ask me to get a friend to talk with if i'm not happy..
How concerned she is....
I noe that i'm poor...

I dun wan my children to be like me....
To feel like a failure...
to feel bad like me...

So i have to work hard...
Not for myself, for my children's future,
for my parents...

Pride??Dignity??

I was reading some of my friend's blog just now...
I really salute them..
They dare to pour out all the things in their life....
Even the slightest joy, sadness, fun......
With their family, friends, or even relationship problems..

What i was trying to mean was,
They dare to tell others their personal problems...
This was what i never done...
Neither daily nor in blog...

I seldom tell people what i really think or how i feel...
All i did was keeping it to myself...

WHY???
My pride forbids me to do so?? My dignity restrains me from doin that??
Why don't i tell??
Why should i be living behind a piece of mask??

Youngest son in the family and have large age gap with my siblings?
Scared of being burst of my secret by someone??
Or what??

Aih....
Celine said..
"so many people keeps everything inside..I don't think it's great. I don't think that it's the idea..You have to share your feelings, your worries, your thoughts, your dreams"

This is for me i think...
" You should talk and express yourself. Conversation is a great way to learn..."
" Keep as happy as you are because i tell u, u meet a lot of people in different conditions in life, not a lot are talking and not very much are expressing themselves.."

Referring myself to i think...

Like what Mahkota Hospital's CEO Ms.Quek said,
"u must know how to release it in certain time...like a kettle, if u shut all the holes, what will happen?? Burst!!...."

Haha...
Jz forget bout it....
Continue with your life...
I believe you won't burst....

camwhoring??

Is this considered as camwhoring??Lolxx...

????????????????????????????????????

My mind suddenly blasted with a lot of ???? at this very certain moment...
First is the issue that i had posted earlier...
Second is, am i really that busy that i lost my contact with my fellow secondary friends??

Last week karu n friends asked me out..Even sin hui they all asked me....
Ok.. Well, be frank and honest, i do went back to pd... But it was out of a suddent decision, right after i've done my interview with CEO of hospital mahkota, melaka. I reached pd saturday night.. I did not join them because it was kinda lame to interfere... Not my style k??

Then earlier that kevin asked me am i goin back( he asked me to go back since months, he said)... I dont think i can make it also... sorry guys...
Althought i dun have class for this week anymore, but I'll be having midterm for BHM this sat..
Then monday i'll have to go for Les as she'll be discussing matters bout midterm..

Am i so called busy that i cant barely able to spend some time with them???
Sigh...

Full of ??????............

Pheww...

The busiest hour of the week had passed..
Just finals, BHM midterm and mock meeting are awaiting me..
Can't wait for mock meeting to come fast this evening...
Just wish me luck for that...

After that, then i'll be able to focus on my BHM...
Sigh...
I wonder why they wanna stuff 3 subjects in one...
Econs+Accounting+Management=BHM..

Hope that i can finish studying it and have time to attempt the past years...

After that, head back to pd for one week to concentrate on my finals...
Wahaha...

What's hidden inside my name??

What Ho Kent Loong Means

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

Busy but relaxing...

We are busy since the era of no spoonfeeding started..
Everyday busy busy busy..
But however, we are still able to steal a glimpse of time to relax and to what we wanna do..
For example, celebrating people's birthday....
Fun whole night..

Haha..

Or if the schedule was somehow loose or if we done our job faster that it was being scheduled or have to have OT (literal meaning=Overtime),
we will usually head to MC-D's located near our house, or do something crazy like eating KFC in the middle of the night??(24 hours KFC located not far from my house), Go jusco that are about not more than 15 minutes walk from my house to fulfill a duty of an consumers, or just simply had a tea at any mamak stall around..
Haha...

But however, i still have my personal entertainment...



What was that??
I can hear many people asking...

With the lights on,





Yea..
My room was decorated with roses, candlelights, red wine, and listening to Celine's Las Vegas a New Day concert...
For no extra reasons..
Just for relaxing purpose....
Haha...
But nw a cant barely able to find a short time slot to do this...
Sigh....

What a Day!!

Friday, with weird weather..
Today was such an weirdo day man...
Morning class, being canceled without notice...
Then with 1 and 45 minutes before next class,
we decided to head to Dengkil to have a breakfast..
Wan Tan meen...
Big and cheap...
Then headed back to campus...
De tour to library 45/30 minutes before class..
To get some rest...
Had to rush for EHM assignment and being frustrated with someone for not being cooperative to help me to do a questionnaire....
Sigh....
Didn't slept until 6am this morning...
Just slept fot not more than an hour 2day!!!

Then another bad news came...
CLASS CANCELED!!!
We all was like, were we being cheated to come from home today??
=.=""

Fine..
Then headed to Alamanda Putrajaya to "cure" my innocent and deeply hurt soul by fulfilling an role of a consumer...
Wahahhahahaa...

Then i walked trough Carrefour, i saw a coffee department, mainly a place for shoppers to rest, with a cute vending machine that i think one will seldom see in Malaysia...
Normal vending machine, but has the function of controlling the sweetness of the coffee, creamy~ness of the coffee and the temperature too??
Wow..So cute...
And it was also quite affordable..
Just 70 cents for a cup of cold coffee...
Haha...



Then after that, headed back to my house...
Suddenly 2 Mr.Policemen came just not long after we came out from Alamanda Putrajaya and guided us back...
Haha..
Since when i became an VIP??
Lol...

?.?

?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

These came to my head when i asked someone to do a questionnaire for my EHM assignment and that particular person said that he or she was busy...
I was like WTF?? That level will make them so pressure and busy more than us where as our standard and syllabus was something more tougher than them??
If being compared with that level that i had went trough earlier like them and the course that i was taking now, it was like comparing a tennis ball with a bean...






See??


Monday,



EHM assignment that i was asking for their tiny help by finishing the questionnaire..
Sigh..Let god treat them back like i was treated by them...

Tuesday,



Listening test for both languages..
にほんご　ひらがなどカタカナ(literal meaning, Japanese, in hiragana and katagana)
한국말 (literal meaning, Korean)

Wednesday,


A にほんご(Japanese) presentation show for oral, that i haven thought of what to present that day yet... Annoying...

Thursday,
The busiest day...
2 of these,



One for BEN, intro to cyberpreneurship
Another is for Moral.

Then, 2 of these again..



One for Japanese and another for Korean.

Friday, have to go back to Melaka to


Interview a director for our Management subject...


And last but not least,
Mock meeting... That was been scheduled to be held on the week after next week...




So??
Do you think that spoonfed era was easier or the self depending era that i'm facing now are more tough??
Sigh....
PEN 0035 is nothing if being compared to LES 1010....
Jz forget bout it...

dfvdegtbhun

Stupid day...
Was so blur the whole day...
Even worst when noon approach...
Felt like bursting...
Sigh..
Hope my chocolate will cure me...