Pride??Dignity??

I was reading some of my friend's blog just now...
I really salute them..
They dare to pour out all the things in their life....
Even the slightest joy, sadness, fun......
With their family, friends, or even relationship problems..

What i was trying to mean was,
They dare to tell others their personal problems...
This was what i never done...
Neither daily nor in blog...

I seldom tell people what i really think or how i feel...
All i did was keeping it to myself...

WHY???
My pride forbids me to do so?? My dignity restrains me from doin that??
Why don't i tell??
Why should i be living behind a piece of mask??

Youngest son in the family and have large age gap with my siblings?
Scared of being burst of my secret by someone??
Or what??

Aih....
Celine said..
"so many people keeps everything inside..I don't think it's great. I don't think that it's the idea..You have to share your feelings, your worries, your thoughts, your dreams"

This is for me i think...
" You should talk and express yourself. Conversation is a great way to learn..."
" Keep as happy as you are because i tell u, u meet a lot of people in different conditions in life, not a lot are talking and not very much are expressing themselves.."

Referring myself to i think...

Like what Mahkota Hospital's CEO Ms.Quek said,
"u must know how to release it in certain time...like a kettle, if u shut all the holes, what will happen?? Burst!!...."

Haha...
Jz forget bout it....
Continue with your life...
I believe you won't burst....

camwhoring??

Is this considered as camwhoring??Lolxx...

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My mind suddenly blasted with a lot of ???? at this very certain moment...
First is the issue that i had posted earlier...
Second is, am i really that busy that i lost my contact with my fellow secondary friends??

Last week karu n friends asked me out..Even sin hui they all asked me....
Ok.. Well, be frank and honest, i do went back to pd... But it was out of a suddent decision, right after i've done my interview with CEO of hospital mahkota, melaka. I reached pd saturday night.. I did not join them because it was kinda lame to interfere... Not my style k??

Then earlier that kevin asked me am i goin back( he asked me to go back since months, he said)... I dont think i can make it also... sorry guys...
Althought i dun have class for this week anymore, but I'll be having midterm for BHM this sat..
Then monday i'll have to go for Les as she'll be discussing matters bout midterm..

Am i so called busy that i cant barely able to spend some time with them???
Sigh...

Full of ??????............